So i am back....Sorry for the disappearance

So I am back and oh fuck my stars a lot has happened. So for one I got dropped from college. Just let that sink in for a moment. I was literally doing so bad that they said you know what since you dont give a flying fuck neither do we and dropped my ass. But on the plus side I got a permanant full time job making okay money with health benefits. But lets dive into the juicy stuff...I overdosed on xanax and almost killed myself and in the process i started flirting with DXM again. That whore is terrible for my entire life but god do i keep coming back to her....yes...why? Because no one in the world can make me feel how she does. She sets my insides on fire while drowning me in a pool of blood. She makes my toes curl and my eyes roll into the back of my head all while killing me slowly...and i let her. I am weak when she is in my presence and idc. I fucking miss her every minute that we are away from each other and i am dealing with withdrawals like im a fucking coke head. How i am going to get through the next six months is a mystery to me...But i've gotten off topic. I started going to NA meetings and they help...somewhat...it took like 3 weeks for my to even admit that i had a drug problem because i dont see her as a problem i see her as a solution.

Until next times loves, Tech <3